ignore this, it is just a list i have no where else to put right now.

bookman rare and used books
1713 21st ave. south

the groove
103 south 11th st.

belcourt theatre
2102 belcourt ave.

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Currently Listening Music for Tourists By Chris Garneau see related

whenever i read my subscriptions almost everything is always negative. lately i have been trying to stay away from that. i know it is hard sometimes, and to quote my good man chris garneau (who is gay by the way... yet another celeb. crush marriage gone down the drain...)
"it's easier if you cry, 'cause you feel bad for yourself."
but really, the first and main step to living a positive life in my opinion is to stop wallowing in self pity, which i am guilty of, and to stop feeling bad about everything and just live. really. any day could be your last. and that is completely realistic and too many people look past the reality of that statement. i know this is kind of messed up, but everyone has weird thoughts... but sometimes i just think of different ways that EVERYTHING you do can kill you. which is why i think people who complain about cigarettes being death bombs are hilarious. i mean ANYTHING can kill you. do you put labels on bottled water saying, "WARNING: you may choke and die if the water goes down the wrong pipe?" no! because that would be ridiculous. i mean i don't smoke and never will become a smoker for personal reasons, but still. i am getting besides the point. i always do that.
but yeah. if people were more conscious of the fact that death may be just around the corner, then everyone would act different and live their life in a way they actually want to live it. so i have been trying to take advantage of all that lays at my fingertips. especially since i live so close to such a big city... there should never be a reason to complain of having "nothing to do." there are endless adventures. and the thought of that makes me happy.
there are tons of negative things that you have to get past, but once you do everything seems so much more amazing. relationships are one thing that makes me endlessly sad, so i guess that is something i have to work on. just the thought of two people loving each other and then falling out of love. that is sad. i am just happy i found someone that i love as a person and romantically. because if the "romantic" part ever fades there is still a person i will hopefully love for a long time. and i realize that you never stop looking and that relationships are kind of pointless since there is always an end. but it is hard to get past that.

i am babbling and this is extremely long, but i won't delete it. if you read that whole thing, congrats to you... but you could have used that valuable time reading a book or something that actually matters and not my silly rants.